i hate deadlines

i hate deadlines. especially i am "ordered" to complete them when I was not told to do so. SO I was accused of poor chinese standard, poor working attitude, poor editing work. The requirements change all the time. I don't mind following changing instructions, it is just... never accuses me for making it wrong, or fail to achieve the tasks. Perhaps, I should eat it and do it. But it is not a pleasure at all to feed all these to myself.

This is the poor fate of a SOHO and poor worker.
My language is not up to standard.
My editing work really sucks.
Even the problem of having bugs in the program will count me in. (However, i did not nothing about the programming.)
OK OK I am following. All my fault.
My fault of not being study hard enough in secondary school,
My fault of achieving a marginal pass in HKCEE & AL,
My fault of making a wrong uni choice,
My fault of giving up BBA, for Humanities,
My fault of not being pretty enough,
My fault of being a self-made monster,
My fault of sticking to my family,
My fault of giving a share of my salary to the family,
My fault of without establishing a career of my own,
My fault of not voicing myself,
Without these faults, I will not be me.
So this is me.